shinethroughthedarkness

skyline distortion

2010-10-27T11:15:00.000-07:00

smog is all there is now

no stars and no sun

just this ghastly spill

of wasted chemistry

and skies come undone

too many pennies, not enough thoughts

2010-10-23T21:23:00.000-07:00

Buried in spoils, up to those bright eyes

Death in a shiny bag, what a surprise

Green is her bed and now in it she lies

Death in a shiny bag, what a surprise

She bleeds green

She bleeds, and bleeds

Take this one to the bank, ready or not

Hurry now, don't delay, this offer's hot

Stoned with her own coins now, she could have fought

Hurry now, don't delay, this offer's hot

She bleeds green

She bleeds, and bleeds

classroom

2010-08-25T10:14:00.001-07:00

creaking hinges

subtle twinges

set your books all in a row.

tapping fingers

silence lingers

feed me knowledge; watch me grow.

notebooks open

all so roped in

teacher, teach me something new.

motivated

captivated

everything you say is true.

-it is, isn't it? surely.

fixings

2010-08-25T10:11:00.000-07:00

realization

complication

trepidation

stop. this.

desperation

hesitation

mutilation

with. this.

motivation

inspiration

celebration

oh, professor

2010-08-25T10:09:00.000-07:00

droplets of moisture on his raised brow

sparkling eyes admire the rushing water

over hard black stone

and he's alone

stranded at the peek of humanity

the younger, fresher something new

sitting in his throne

and he's alone.

world spinning backward

2010-08-25T10:03:00.000-07:00

brilliant is irrelevancy in this dark world

brilliant, she whispered

irrelevant, he heard

potential is ineptitude coated with grace

potential, they shouted

but only to his face

marvel is looking without paying attention

marvel they did

at whatever he'd mention

braggadocio

2010-08-15T20:01:00.000-07:00

Now my high horse is dead;
you shot him in the head.
My pretense came tumbling down.
It's the price that I pay
For the games that I play.
Now all I can do is bow down.

Project Awaken! Here it comes...

2010-08-10T13:52:00.001-07:00

eros

2010-07-26T17:59:00.000-07:00

the dancing of fingertips over delicate skin

heat fights the chill in this war that we're in

short gasps for air, so awake and alluring

melting within this disease we are curing

the fire's ignited, and we're burning alive

perfect explosion of passion and drive

lust whispers sweet nothings into love's pretty ear

secret admiration of loving touches so dear

desire

2010-07-20T20:57:00.000-07:00

angel most fair with eyes so vivid and full of green and gold and blue

and your smile that sings a tune no one could ever transpose

you're my muse

the song that i'll always sing off key

always forgetting the last verse

just a harmony sans the melody without you

echoing in the halls of empty bedrooms and kitchens

longing for your voice

angel most fair with lips so softly teaching gentleness and passion

and your sigh that captivates the most frigid of souls

you're my heart

the joy that i'll always yearn for

always just a bit out of reach

just a love story sans the happy ending without you

delaying the eventuality of tragedy or horrors ahead

longing for your kiss

oh, sweet angel kisses

ethereal

2010-07-15T12:44:00.000-07:00

Her imagination brings her to ethereal places,

warm summer raindrops on beautiful faces.

She makes quite the mess, then erases the traces,

magic erasers in gentle embraces.

The heart that's secured and tied up in laces

can't be held back from the love that it chases.

And oh, how it races.

stained

2010-07-12T17:06:00.001-07:00

Mostly just darkness, where did the shine go?

It's somewhere, it's somewhere, it's somewhere, I know.

Reach deep inside, where the roses still grow.

Where the thorns prick your fingers and the blood drips slow.

Puckered lips to the wound will make it all better.

But kisses can't erase red on the new, white sweater.

Bleach and soaps and swirling suds,

can't wash away all the blood.

Time to buy a new blouse to replace the old.

Time to give up this stain and the torment it holds.

Mostly just darkness, where did the shine go?

It's somewhere, it's somewhere, it's somewhere, I know.

thesaurus

2010-07-10T16:52:00.000-07:00

the white fan keeps on oscillating 'cause it's an oscillating fan.

just a fancy word for rotate, created by a man.

the air breathes my way, a nice way of saying blows.

the words we use are pretty so no one really knows...

...about the reality of heat, without the fan to keep us neat.

suffocating

2010-07-10T16:02:00.000-07:00

Slow and blues with a heavy bass and not enough elongated pauses between sentence fragments trapped together and begging for escape from their too lengthy phrases.

-can't breathe.

Beautiful and messed up and sorry and excited and she forgot what she was writing about but she doesn't care anymore because it's just writing and not some show.

-can't breathe.

Sunsets outside her window but her blinds are closed and she's not planning on opening them for anyone today except for maybe him but she knows he's not coming.

-can't breathe.

Clothes cover her floor and they're mostly clean but some are dirty and she can't remember which ones so she just just leaves them all there and wears what's in the closet.

-can't breathe.

Soft red and pinks from the roses on her blanket feel smooth on her skin and she smells them and she doesn't think they smell like roses but she can't remember what roses smell like.

-can't breathe.

-can't.

-brea...

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galavanting

2010-06-28T14:56:00.000-07:00

the right hand's asleep again.

prickly pain.

the last time I checked this

wasn't a game.

the doctor's asleep again.

all through the rain.

the first time I checked this

is still the same.

numb and dumb and overcome.

daunting, haunting, galavanting as something better

than it is.

buried soul

2010-06-14T08:19:00.001-07:00

It came slowly and unexpectedly, like the lines on her face,

Aged by the sun and it's subtle embrace.

It came quickly and passionately, like those hurricane winds,

Unmoving waters 'til the terror descends.

She'll move silently and carefully, not one breath escaping,

Secrets so deadly, they'd leave them all gaping.

She'll crawl desperately and frantically, heading back to her hole,

Searching in dim light for her dead, buried soul.

blue world

2010-06-09T06:48:00.000-07:00

it's the air that we're breathing,

in and out slowly.

it's the way that we're feeling,

faceless and lonely.

but this blue world keeps spinning, passing us by.

and of all of the questions, no one asks why.

it's the tales that we're writing,

antiquated cliches.

it's the way that we're fighting,

getting worse with the days.

but this blue world keeps spinning, swirling around.

and of all of the questions, no one asks how.

it's the sorrow we dream of,

nightmares that scream.

it's the hope of a new love,

a great rushing stream.

but this blue world keeps spinning, always so blue.

and of all of the questions, no one asks who.

who can change it? i know.

eye of her storm

2010-06-08T06:46:00.001-07:00

Beyond the quiet vibrations of his foot tapping nervously on the floor

And the click of his chattering teeth,

Her breath is a soft whisper that drives him into a new oblivion.

Chastised by the unshed tears that cry inside her mind and outside reality,

But merciful vibrations from his foot;

They pull her into the spiraling until he becomes the eye of her storm.

The rights and the wrongs all seem to blur into a dangerous circular argument.

They're written clearly in the Bible,

The ones they like highlighted, the ones they don't covered in dust.

Beautiful truths left untold for the sake of magnificent lies; stop lying.

I don't want to hear your stories.

But no matter how many times he says it, she isn't real. She doesn't cry.

surrender

2010-03-08T21:06:00.000-08:00

Go ahead, tear me to pieces.

Light the pieces on fire;

make me watch them burn.

Kill everything that's left of me.

God, knock me down;

let my wounds bleed out.

Still, nothing compares to You.

Nothing in me is good;

nothing is holy.

I'm just like them, really.

Who did I think I was fooling

when I said I was different?

Not You.

Never You.

I was fooling myself.

God, destroy me completely.

I don't want to be this anymore,

not this ugly, lying wretch.

I'm not ready for what You're doing.

I'll never be ready for this,

never be ready for You.

So pull the rug out from under me.

Steal away my selfish desires,

until there's nothing left of me.

And only You.

2009-09-30T04:44:00.001-07:00

Crumbling roses greet me hello.

The answer is yes, but I'll keep saying no.

The water beads on undried dishes.

My heart is filled with silly wishes.

And I'll keep on telling myself I'm not alone.

Yeah, I'll keep on telling myself I'm not alone.

I'll keep on telling myself I'm not alone.

Yes, I'll keep on telling myself I'm not alone.

Lathering water runs down the drain.

Circling, circling, it drives me insane.

A fragile package says handle with care.

I'm marked with weakness; it doesn't seem fair.

'Cause when I'm happy I don't feel this way.

When I'm happy I don't think this way.

When I'm happy I don't sing this way.

Don't have to keep on telling myself I'm not alone.

But I keep on telling myself I'm not alone.

I'll keep telling myself I'm not alone.

Yes, I'll keep on telling myself I'm not alone.

Frozen

2009-09-30T04:39:00.000-07:00

Icicles form on the tips of my fingers.

Heat clouds my eyes, while cold air lingers.

Frozen in this fire, it's freezer burn.

Lower or higher, it's hard to discern.

So Cold

2009-04-20T10:19:00.000-07:00

I'm under dressed and overwhelmed.
Feeling spring in winter's shell.
So cold.

God's Sense of Humor

2009-04-16T06:50:00.000-07:00

Today the sun seeems sarcastic.
Its rays make life seem fantastic.
God's sense of humor is strange.

When the rain comes, it's magic.
Want the truth? You have it.
God's sense of humor is strange.

Tornadoes and hurricanes
Volcanoes and heavy rains
God's sense of humor is strange

Save a world, unworthy
Give Your Son, so holy
God's sense of humor is strange.

...or maybe He's serious after all.

Remodel

2009-04-11T10:47:00.000-07:00

The original intent of this blog was to give myself some much needed experience with writing about important topics like politics and the economy. Obviously, I have not been the most consistent in this little adventure, because I haven't posted since October. Thus, I've decided to just use this a place to jot down whatever I feel like, whenever I feel like it.

Hmm. Typical blog, I suppose. I don't think it particularly matters, since no one really reads this, but it's always nice to have an outlet.

Today, I feel like writing a bit of poetry. I'll probably do this frequently. Here goes nothing, again.

Resisting the temptations
Subtle realizations
Of a life I'm bound to lead
Living in the present
Still so hesitant
Of the life I'm bound to lead
Dancing to the music
Not afraid? Prove it
In a life I'm bound to lead
Tempo of your heart calls
Light until dark falls
On a life I'm bound to lead
Placate those around you
No one else astounds you
It's the life I'm bound to lead
Drowning in iniquities
You save me again, with ease
From this life I'm bound to lead
Resisting the temptations
Subtle realizations
Of a life I'm bound to lead

DOW(n)

2008-10-10T11:08:00.000-07:00

The media keeps going on and on about how the DOW is doing so horribly and how that means we're heading for a *dramatic pause* depression. I'd just like to review some of the facts. First of all, the DOW is just a part of the stock market, and other areas are doing poorly, but not as poorly as the DOW. Second, the company facing the most significant losses within the DOW is Exon-Mobil. They're facing problems because oil prices are down- which, other than the negative impact on the DOW, has also given us a national average of a 31 cent decrease in gasoline per gallon!

So, is it really that bad?

VP Debate

2008-10-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

Governor Sarah Palin and Senator Joe Biden

It was a fast paced debate last night, with hardly a pause. Both VP candidates did a fantastic job. Occasionally, Senator Biden came off as a bit robotic and coached. Contrastly, Gov. Palin tended to come off a bit folksy.

I've had the opportunity to visit with a few different people about their responds to the VP debate. So far the trend seems to be that Democrats say Sen. Biden won by a long shot and Republicans say Gov. Palin won by a long shot. Big surprise there, huh?

I was impressed particularly with the moments in which Sen. Biden let his personality shine through. I would say that Gov. Palin succeeded in letting hers shine throughout the debate. Sen. Biden answered the debate questions more than Gov. Palin, who swirved away from questions like, What is your achilles heal? and Which promises will you not be able to keep? I thought Sen. Biden definitely handles these questions much better than Gov. Palin. I was hoping that she would run with her I'm just like you approach, and admitted her weakness, even if she would have said, "My weakness is doing interviews with Katie Courick." Haha.

I look forward to more response to this debate, and have already been quite amused at the bias perspective the media has taken on its outcome.

More on the specific issues discussed to come...

Shall we party or do business?

2008-09-30T14:07:00.000-07:00

Did you get a chance to hear or review the marvelous speech given by our very own Speaker of the House? Not only did she put her full confidence in the bill, and congress's capability to pass it, but she rose above partisanship and petty blame games in a way that will be reflected in our successful economy for years to come.

The bill was passed. We'll all live happily ever after. The End.

...or not.

Politics, as usual, continues to fail us. Honestly, I wasn't even that upset that the bill didn't pass as is. I'd like to see it further revised. However, I didn't think anything she said was necessary or even appropriate under the circumstances. Is that all we do in congress? Do we just bicker over who's better- the big D's or the big R's? So much for government!

Here in America, we just party all the time!

The Economy

2008-09-26T10:47:00.001-07:00

The media continues to cry, "Recession!" all the more now that the president, along with presidential nominees, are calling our current economic situation a crisis. I'm no economics genius, but my goal is simply to find out how the current events are going to affect average American citizens.

I'd like to begin by saying that the masses are in control. We choose whether to remain active in the economy or to hesitate for fear of being too risky. The Great Depression morphed into the feared event it was through everyday, average citizens choosing not to buy, not to borrow, and not to invest. Soon, there was less of a demand in all of those products and services. That loss in demand caused those product and service providers to need less employees to do this lesser amount of work demanded. That resulted in a loss of jobs, which started the vicious cycle all over again.

BUT! Even when the Great Depression was at its worst, 75% of the people, who wanted jobs, had jobs. That doesn't mean that their lives were not affected by the catastrophic changes in the economy; it does mean, however, that their lives remained fairly normal.

The opinions of expert econimists vary rather extremely, which makes me question how accurate these economic predictions can actually be. Some are saying that if the government sits back and does nothing, we're sure to enter into a recession. Some are saying that if the government intervenes in our "free market," we're sure to enter into a recession. However, most econimists admit that no matter what happens, our country will probably enter into some sort of a recession. However, the severity of that recession cannot possibly be predicted, from what I understand, because we control the economy.

Another thing to keep in mind is that the media has a responsibility to report whatever news is available to them. Unfortunately, the biggest news, as of late, is the falling economy. I say unfortunately because the negativity that truly does exist is seemingly getting worse and worse by the second, simply because the media continues to restate and investigate the same story. Don't assume that because AIG had some major problems that you're no longer going to have access to credit. This may occur, especially if the average Americans choose to withdraw from activity within the economy, but will more likely be a gradual decrease in credit availability.

Things to be concerned about:

Is your bank an FDIC member? (insured by the government for up to $100,000 per customer)

What's happening with your 401K? (Pay attention to the specific numbers, not just the media!)

Are you contributing to the recovery or the fall of the economy? (Pay your bills on time.)

Now, whether or not tossing 700 billion dollars into the stock market will help matters is something we, at this point, will get little say in. However, I think it's clear that some limitations put on the power of the Secretary of Treasury and on stock market fat cats would sure bring a little bit of piece to our minds.

I'll probably write more on this topic later. Feel free to add information or critique my information. If you'd like sources, let me know!

Seeking truth

2008-09-25T11:27:00.000-07:00

I'm beginning this blog with the intentions of seeking the truth. I had hoped to specify a certain area of truth to focus in on, but politics, the economy, or religion alone don't seem to suffice. I'm hoping to create some sort of collaboration of all these categories to paint for the readers a more complete perspective of truth.

In doing so, I also hope to paint an accurate picture of what is not truth. I think this may often prove to be as important as the formerly mentioned, as well as necessary in discovering what truth really is.

I'd like to start by telling you some truths about myself. I am an incredibly bias, conservative, southern Baptist, 18-year-old female. Thus, I will probably let quite a bit of opinion seep into these blogs, but I assure that my intentions will remain the same- seeking the truth. At least I'm willing to admit to my biases and journaling flaws, unlike so many in the mainstream media today. I should probably also mention that I dream of being a political journalist someday, with the eventual plan of running my own magazine with a purpose quite parallel to this blog.

I see this blog, not only as a nice way to inform the public of the truth, but also to teach myself different tactics in seeking the truth. I hope that through your critiques and suggestions, I would become a more capable and fair journalist- but most importantly, honest. Thank you for your support in reading this blog. Please comment often and return regularly.